Kitties in Bunnies

I took too much Ativan before the CT scan and kept falling asleep as the technician told me to breathe in and hold. Sheri drove Tom and me. It's much better for him in the waiting room when he has someone he trusts.

I almost got sick on the way to the scan and then again on the way home. Is the opium making my tummy sensitive or am I just so insanely scared I don't notice the tummy issues? 

Tomorrow I talk to the doc. Tomorrow I come up with yet another a chemo plan. 

Cole asked me to zip up his pink, bunny, footie pajamas last night. He's taken over all of Adeline's footie pajamas that are too large for her. He likes the warm feet (his room is the coldest) and as most of her PJs are pink, he's mostly in pink. I try to zip it up and realize he has something stuffed inside against his chest. 

"What's that?" I ask.

He pushes up Aw Bown K'y's head for me to see.

"Oh! You want him to stay close, hunh?"

He nods and pulls another kitty out... the one he calls Momma kitty... for me to see. He stuffs them both back inside the bunny pajamas. I have to hold the zipper shut in order for him to zip them into place. He lies down on his bed straight, unable to bend. He grins. 

"I love my kitties."

We had a nice weekend. Mom's friend, Judy, was in town from the South and Mom celebrated by taking us out to a ladies' lunch. Sheri and our neighbor Carol came, too. It was lovely. On Sunday, we finally got to meet our friends' twin boys.

I felt better and better as the weekend progressed. I have no idea what the decision on this chemo will be. One day, I am convinced I can't handle one more day of it and then, suddenly, I think, "It's only one more round... I can do that." Can I? I don't know. Tonight I waver. I want to get back to zipping up the kitties and putting my kids to bed when I want to, not when I can. I'd like to move forward.

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[Aunt Boonie]

You are all in my prayers today--March 2nd. as you see the results and make decisions. May this be a happy birthday for Tom and for you & the children! My love & prayers always. A Boonie