Write

Writing a blog entry is a style adjustment for me these days. I am immersed in the book I'm working on, and communicating about the daily toils and joys of the Clydes' lives is suddenly more difficult.

I remind myself that I began the blog to give people easy access to my heath status. It helps me feel closer to my family and friends far away. It helps nearby friends and family know why I've been absent for awhile and haven't returned phone calls. People don't have to worry and wonder. If I write how I'm doing, I don't have to retell the tale. 

I also like the daily practice of writing. The more I write, the more I want to write.

There is so much talk of me on my blog, and I'm not my favorite subject. In fiction, I can create a new character and get away from myself. On my blog, I try to be honest about how I'm feeling so that I'm truly sharing. Me, me, me, blah, blah, blah

I am having continued side effects that, I think, will affect my next treatment. It will likely be reduced. There's a study coming out (or has come out) about the effectiveness of 6 rounds of chemo versus 12 in metastatic colon cancer. As I am heading next week into round 6, I am anxious for the results and plan to hold off any further treatments beyond 6 until the study does surface. 

I have a CT scan next week that I'm hoping shows nothing. The anxiety has started however, and I'm trying to sleep at night. 

I keep busy. I always keep busy. I write. Then I write more. 

Comments

[brigita]

My 18 month scan is a week from tomorrow. I'm thisclose to calling one of my myriad docs for a scrip for Lorazepam to get through it all.

[Ellen]

Just sending a confirmation on just HOW much your friends far away look forward to hearing from you. Can you take baldrian for better sleeping?

[Renee Clyde]

Good luck! I am thinking of you.