Well, we met with my oncologist today. Chemo will likely begin in the next 2-3 weeks, and it will not be any easier than last time. It's all too much for me to go into much detail right now. Dr. Bergsland reminded us that the chemo makes it about 30% less likely that I have a recurrence. There's no specific evidence for my situation, but she feels strongly that we do all we can to avoid recurrence. I've been focusing on all of the reasons why I hate chemo (there's much to hate), but how can I not do all I can?
I'm still a long way from being prepared, but at least I'm heading in the right direction.
I'm really tired of the sad story. I'm preparing for a fabulously happy, sappy ending to all of this. I just have to rely on myself to write the ending I want.
I don't write often but I read every one of these posts and think about you LITERALLY every day. In my thoughts you are kicking cancer in the kisser (and she's a jerk, she deserves it - go ahead kick her ass). In my thoughts you are close to the finish line. i'll keep you in my thoughts, healthy and full of all our love.
Posted by: Lucy Owen | October 28, 2009 at 12:12 AM
I just saw that the Bay Bridge was shut down, a cable snapped and damaged one car. I immediately checked your blog to make sure it was not your car that was damaged. Considering all the bad luck you had with cars years ago, I thought it sounded like something that could happen to only Coley. Lol
Posted by: George Shuput | October 28, 2009 at 01:09 AM
You are the BRAVEST person I know! Keep on keeping on, as hard as it is. I read all of your posts and think of you every day, too.
Love,
Virginia
Posted by: virginia Bradley | October 28, 2009 at 10:28 AM
I've been reading a good bit about chemo these days and thinking of you. And imagining the bravery and will power needed. Sending brave thoughts and super will power your way...
Posted by: Ellen | October 28, 2009 at 02:03 PM